I am not making resolutions this year
I haven't felt moved to make new year resolutions this year. If 2020 taught me anything it was that seemingly random stuff - like Covid, like the circus in the US right now - happens; that so much of our lives in a story in our heads, or more dangerously, in Donald Trump's head.
I also haven't felt moved to write the usual new year blog. So many of them contain imperatives about what we should be doing in 2021.
I find most of them preachy
".... just do x, y or z ... and your life will be perfect".
Blah, blah, blah
Tedious and far from inspiring.
I find nature and the tomatoes I am growing in my garden more inspiring!
The Power in a Story
This morning I was feeling some trepidation and anxiety about settling into what I was speaking about in my last blog -- stepping into my authenticity and power and publicising Re-imagining Ourselves to a wider audience than I have to date. I was noticing doubt and fear creeping into my thoughts.
My lovely partner, Terence and I have an agreement to listen without judgement or comment to each other - and so I took a few minutes to acknowledge to myself and to be witnessed that I was feeling daunted. That is really all it took. Naming my old companions of fear and doubt and seeing them as feelings and not who I am.
This meant I was able to sink beneath the feelings and reconnect with the archetypes that provide the raison d'être for, and the framework of Re-imagining Ourselves.
I was able to relax Inanna and Ereshkigal archetypes and realise in a heartbeat that I am in service to this amazing ancient story of integration and transformation.
Sometimes, we need to get out of our own way!
My work with Inanna and Ereshkigal is not done yet.
Not that this next stage will be easy - but it will be for a purpose, a purpose bigger than me, bigger than my 'pea-brain' (my word for my ego / limited / individualistic view of things).
This story has been my companion for so long - and there is more to be done to honour it and stand strong and proud with it as a useful, beautiful framework for us to navigate our lives with power and meaning.
Then I went for a walk in the rain.... feeling so grateful.
Grateful for Terence in my life
Grateful for the skills we live in our relationship - listening and
striving to be authentic individually and together and supporting each
other to be the biggest human being we can be
Grateful for the Inanna story which somehow chose me to be one of it's storytellers